2 years ago today…

2 years ago today…

i took my first pregnancy test & it was slightly positive…

my husband didn’t believe me

one of my best friends assured me i was pregnant

i didn’t know what to think?

so the next day we headed to CT for our Christmas vacation & I still didn’t know if I was REALLY pregnant- I was late & irritable,but it still wasn’t enough to convince me that this was really happening- that there was a little baby forming inside of me.

we get to the airport & nothing justin can do is right- he rushes ahead of me so we don’t miss our flight & I accuse him of trying to leave me behind- seriously I thought to myself where are these emotions coming from? i don’t even know? i start to think maybe I really am pregnant & that faint pink line was telling the truth. I tell Justin again & he still doesn’t believe me.

We arrive to my parents house & I am starting to feel so tired & nauseous & I am starting to believe that this is ALL real -I am indeed pregnant. I give myself one more day to wait to see if the test will come out more definite…

The next morning I sneak into the bathroom before anyone gets up. I nervously take the test all while knowing that if this test ends up negative I am not going to know what to do- at this point I had convinced myself that this was really happening & I knew that I would be so crushed if the test ended up being negative. I waited for what seemed like the longest thirty seconds of my life & there it was two solid lines forming a +. I can still remember like it was yesterday I looked into the mirror & screamed to myself, cried, & did one of those happy dances all in one…

In that moment I knew that my life would never be the same. I cared for someone now more than myself & the only thing I could think to do was pray- pray for God’s protection & safety on my baby & it’s life. I became a mom the second I saw a positive on that test because my heart has never grown so much in my entire life- in an instant I knew I would spend the rest of my life praying, caring, & sacrificing for someone that I would always love more  than myself & this had to be one of the most beautiful moments of my life & such a WONDERFUL  early christmas present :)


beautiful exchange.

[picture taken in June & with a little photoshop work]

I wanted to share something that really blessed me today. I pray that it touches you in the same way that it did me- God’s great LOVE. It really is the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced.


marshmallows & more.

this is a little post i put together a couple weeks ago for Lacee over at mommas like me.& i just wanted to share with all of you as I know everyone is getting ready or has already started to bake & put things together for the holidays. enjoy!

i dont know about all of you, but with the holiday season approaching i know i am looking for creative things to be putting out for this years christmas party. i found this idea the other day & thought that this would be perfect – so here it is a lil recipe for entertaining this holiday season.

i love a good warm mug of hot chocolate this time of year & that is exactly why i wanted to share this with you today:

home-made scrumptious hot chocolate & white-chocolate peppermint marshmallow dippers.

white-chocolate peppermint marshmallow dippers.
1 package  marshmallows
1 container sprinkles
1 bag of melting chocolate or chocolate chips
15 peppermint sticks
melt the chocolate then dip the peppermint stick into the chocolate & stick into the marshmallow. set aside to dry. after it is dry dip the marshmallows in chocolate & roll the end of the marshmallow in the sprinkles.
 you can then either use these as hot chocolate stirrers or eat them all by themselves. I personally love them melted into my hot chocolate :) the peppermint taste so good with the warm hot chocolate :)

home-made scrumptious hot chocolate

1 tbsp. cocoa powder
2 tbsp. sugar
2 tbsp. water
1 c. milk
a bit of vanilla
Combine cocoa, sugar, and water in a small saucepan. Heat it on low heat, stirring occasionally to prevent the paste from sticking to the pan. After about 1 to 2 minutes, add milk and vanilla. Mix it all together until it reaches your preferred temperature & bam! you have an amazing cup of hot chocolatey deliciousness.
hope you all enjoy & let me know if you try this out. It is really simple & tasty!
with love,

Christmas here & Christmas there.

I love this time of year & everything that it entails. I am loving having Shane be able to participate in the little things like picking out a tree, decorating the house, driving around looking at christmas lights & watching our favorite christmas movies.

I love spending this time with my family :)


I hope you are enjoying spending this holiday season with the ones you love. I know I am.


wish list.

I decided to make up a little wish list & let me tell you a lot of the things on this list are pure wishes,but even if so a girl can dream right?

glad my hubby looks at my blog because this is for him :) hehe.

whats on your wish list?

happy monday.


dear shane

Dear Shane,

You have been growing so much these last couple months & I can not believe all that you are learning. It seems like every morning when I wake up you have learned something new & it amazes me- you amaze me :) I am such a proud momma & I really can not help it.

God has blessed me with an amazing son. I hope that i NEVER lose sight of that- I want to always believe in you & always be there for you. I see so many parent/child relationships that are torn & at a distance. I pray that never happens with us- that both of our hearts will always be focused on Christ & that we will always be a close family.


I TREASURE our family. It is God’s greatest gift to me here on earth & I will always treasure it. I will pray for it. I will fight for it. I will sacrifice for it. I wanted to write you & tell you this in case I ever lose sight of that- Remind me. Remind me what I wrote to you. I pray that I can be the mom that you need & a mom that points your heart towards Christ- a mom that trusts you & that leads you to the truth.

I love you baby boy & I pray that I can be the mom that God has intended me to be :)

Love always,


fragments of our fall: photo friday.

i have been pretty bad on posting these last couple weeks :( this last month has been a blast! & i have had so many other things that needed to come before my little blog, but now that i am back home & settled in i am hoping to be able to write & posts a little more :)

but i am so thankful for the time we were able to spend with so many people that we love. God is always so good to give you just what you need when you need it. i need to brag for a minute- God has blessed us with so many wonderful, encouraging, godly people that we get to share our life with- i treasure this so much! i can not think of a greater gift than that of wonderful friends & family. thank you God :)

so here is a little bit of our fall in a collage.

with love,



p.s.  i am also guest posting over at Mommas Like Me & i shared a delish holiday recipe- check it out :)