my little shane


shane justus,

you are a gift from God

the day i first met you i knew that God had a great plan for you life.

the way you smile at me makes my heart melt.

sometimes i worry that i will get sick & maybe even that someday you will have to live with out me. i don’t know what God has planned for our life & sometimes that scares me.

i know that you will grow up & there will be so many things that look better than the path that God has intended for you. remember that God made you for a special purpose & it doesn’t have to be something that everyone else deems “successful” God determines your success not this world,not money, not fame, & not other people.

someday people may be really mean to you even cruel. don’t turn resentful remember to pray for them because they are probably facing something harder than you can imagine.

someday you will have babies of your own & you will feel that unbelievable-uncondtional love of a parent & so many things that your dad & i have told you will make sense. all we have every wanted was the best for you & that is all you will ever want for your children.

you are a strong person. i can already tell. you get that from your dad. he is one of the strongest people i know. i am blessed to have you both in my life

you have a sensitive soul. God has given you that so that you will help others. i am just discovering why God has given me that same soul-so that you could feel other peoples pains & help make them a little easier.

there will be a lot of girls that you will think are beautiful, but wait for that one girl who captures your soul & your mind. she will be become more beautiful to you than any other girl. the truest beauty you can find in a girl is in her love for God, for others & for you. i know that she will be so special & will take care of you. the relationship i have with your dad is the most beautiful thing here on earth- i pray that you find that. i have faith that God will bring that to you.

& whoever you decide to love i will love because i know that by loving her i am loving you in return.

I love you, Shane. I am so happy to be your momma & I can not wait to see the beautiful story of your life unfold.


Sick little man


I feel bad that I have not written in a couple weeks. I miss it. I have been preoccupied with so many other things in my life it seems like my blog has been one of my last priorities these days, but that is okay because sometimes there are just more important things that need to get done or that need my time.

Shane has been sick since Wednesday & it has been really hard on me-not only because I am not feeling well either, but because this is the first time he has really been sick. He has croup & with croup comes difficulty breathing. & it scares me. I feel helpless. I want to take all of his pain. I never knew that it would hurt so much to be a momma. I really do feel his pain-worse than my own. I was dreading going to bed last night because I just wanted him to be comfortable to be able to sleep.
Through his sickness though I am thankful for the time it has given me to cuddle & pray for & with Shane. I have trouble letting go & trusting God fully with the ones I love. It scares me. It scares me that God could have a different plan for them than the one that I have(where everyone is safe & healthy) over the last couple days though God has strengthened my faith & put His loving arms around me to strengthen me & allow me to let go of my fears & REALLY trust Him. I know it is something that I am going to have to keep asking God for strength , but I know He will be faithful to provide.
I know that some mothers have been through so much sickness with their children & so much uncertainty. I feel for them. It is hard to watch your baby suffer & I don’t think it will get easier as he gets older.
I am praying that tonight Shane can sleep through the night & start to feel like himself very soon.
Hope you have a great weekend. I am pretty sure we will just be laying around this weekend :) :)


Photo canvas DIY


I am so excited to share how I did this really really simple photo canvas. Photo canvases are ridiculously priced-at least I think so, but they do look so nice. So I found this idea on pinterest & figured I would give it a try.

A canvas
A picture (equal sizing)
Mod podge (gloss or matte)
Foam brush
Black craft paint
Medium paint brush






& that is it! This cost me about $5 to make in all & it really looks better than I thought. I know it would make a great present for family members.

Hope you enjoyed & thanks for stopping by!

Happy crafting & happy Friday!


orange county fun

Last weekend we got to go down to the beach while my best friend was visiting from arizona (it is always a good time when she is in town). It was a beautiful day, a little windy,but when it is 65 in the middle of January I will not complain.

[outfit details: jeans=oldnavy skinnies, cardigan=h&m baby, white button down=baby gap, boots=h&m]

I decided I am going to start to post some baby WHW (what he wore). I LOVE dressing my little man & am always on the look out for good places to find stylish & affordable clothes for Shane so I figured I would share where I get his clothes- I love when other people share too!

I love being able to spend time with friends & our little family. Life is such a blessing & everyday it just gets better & better.