a happy third birthday.


any day at disney is a good day, but when it is your third birthday i don’t think it gets much better than that.
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i love this little guy more than i could ever say. i tried so hard the whole day not to cry & be sad that he is getting so big, but at the end of the day when we were watching the world of color & shane was sitting on top of his dads shoulders-it happened-those sweet tears of thankfulness & joy for the blessing his life, just ran down my cheeks. it is a moment i will never forget. i feel so overwhelmed with God’s blessing on my life & i hope that i never forget that these precious times together is really what it is all about.




a beautiful july fourth

this july 4th was extra special because it was the first one that i got to spend with my family in probably 5-6 years. my parents were visiting for the week so any holiday that i get to spend with them is extra special. & july 4th happens to be one of my very favorite holidays- bbqing,playing games, fireworks, & a warm summer day-really what isn’t there to love?

[justin driving an old car in our local july 4th parade]

[1st fireworks for shane//didnt exactly go that well-maybe next year]

i am so thankful for my country. i am thankful for my freedom. i am proud of all the men & women that serve to protect everything that our nation was founded on & stand for. i am thankful that we have a day like july 4th to stop & think about our country & thank God for blessing it & giving us so much freedom.

i hope each one of you had an amazing time with family & friends celebrating this wonderful country of ours!


first snow

justin has been so busy the last couple weeks & has been working 6 days a week almost 13-14 hour days. sometimes that is just life when you are a business owner. so this past friday he decided to take off & we would all take a little day-cation up to the mountains to see the snow. it was a perfect day for us as a family & shane loved it because we found a playground that had swings-this little man lives for the swings seriously, nothing makes him happier than being one whope you


hope you have a happy wednesday!


19 months & learning

life lately with my little man has been such a joy. i am really enjoying all this alone time that we have right now. i know that someday it won’t just be the two of us running around doing errand, exploring, or enjoying ourselves at the park.

& it makes me stop & think & i feel so blessed that God has give me Shane to take care of- i know that every parent must think this,but i know that God gave me someone very special to look after- this little guy lights up a room & knows just what to do to make everyone smile. i really could not ask for a better little man.

& did i mention how much fun this toddler stage is! i really believe he is learning something new every day: as of today he can

-say: mama, da!!!!(not dadda, not daddy, just daaa & he always screams it), wawa(water), cheese, apple,nana (banana),choo choo, girl, hot, cold,ball, elmo, boy, ookie (cookie), more,book,ampa (grandpa),nana, ama (grandma),papa,up,mama,mama,mama…& he usually will repeat words if i tell him to say them, but these are the regulars in his vocabulary as of now.

-he climbs-on everything & tries to surf on his rocking chair

-kick a ball & throw it

-eat on his own

-give hugs & kisses to us & random kids at the park

-sings & dances whenever there is music & he has the moves

-loves the water (the bath, a sprinkler, a water fountain, a pond, any form of water)

-can spin

-can walk his doggies

-can give high-five & knuckles

-can fold his hands when we pray

some of his favorite this right now are:

-the park, the playhouse at the gym, elmo, fruit, sweet potatoes, chicken, his blankie & paci, reading & especially “i love you through & through”, & walking his doggies

he is just learning so much from justin & i & it is so amazing to watch a child transform in front of you & knowing that the influence that you have on this very special life will be forever-blessed.

he is just learning so much from justin & i & it is so amazing to watch a child transform in front of you & knowing that the influence that you have on this very special life will be forever-blessed.

happy thursday & happy 19th month to my little man!


A visit & A goodbye.

This is when living 3000 miles from my family hurts-the goodbyes & the knowing that my mom won’t get to hold her little grand baby for a couple months & knowing that Shane truly will miss his Nana.

My mom was able to visit for a couple days this weekend & it was wonderful & refreshing being able to spend time with her & her be able to spend time with Shane.
He woke up this morning say “nana nana”. I know that God has me where I am & that gives me a peace and comfort, but it is still so hard at times.
I do have to say that this weekend was incredible having my mom & aunt here. It was just what they needed & what I needed as well. We were able to just relax, go to the movies, spend the day at the beach & enjoy a nice Sunday worshiping & resting.
I have to brag on my mom for a minute. She is an amazing grandmother. It makes me so happy the way she loves Shane. He lights her up & she lights him up as well. I know they have a special connection & it is an amazing seeing your parents melt at the sight of your child.

Yes, I wish that my family lived down the street, but more than that I am thankful that my family loves & wants to spend time with Shane. They are incredibly loving people & I could not ask for them to love him more because they do not just say that they love him they actively show it & this means the world to me.

Hope you all had a wonderful weekend.


my little shane


shane justus,

you are a gift from God

the day i first met you i knew that God had a great plan for you life.

the way you smile at me makes my heart melt.

sometimes i worry that i will get sick & maybe even that someday you will have to live with out me. i don’t know what God has planned for our life & sometimes that scares me.

i know that you will grow up & there will be so many things that look better than the path that God has intended for you. remember that God made you for a special purpose & it doesn’t have to be something that everyone else deems “successful” God determines your success not this world,not money, not fame, & not other people.

someday people may be really mean to you even cruel. don’t turn resentful remember to pray for them because they are probably facing something harder than you can imagine.

someday you will have babies of your own & you will feel that unbelievable-uncondtional love of a parent & so many things that your dad & i have told you will make sense. all we have every wanted was the best for you & that is all you will ever want for your children.

you are a strong person. i can already tell. you get that from your dad. he is one of the strongest people i know. i am blessed to have you both in my life

you have a sensitive soul. God has given you that so that you will help others. i am just discovering why God has given me that same soul-so that you could feel other peoples pains & help make them a little easier.

there will be a lot of girls that you will think are beautiful, but wait for that one girl who captures your soul & your mind. she will be become more beautiful to you than any other girl. the truest beauty you can find in a girl is in her love for God, for others & for you. i know that she will be so special & will take care of you. the relationship i have with your dad is the most beautiful thing here on earth- i pray that you find that. i have faith that God will bring that to you.

& whoever you decide to love i will love because i know that by loving her i am loving you in return.

I love you, Shane. I am so happy to be your momma & I can not wait to see the beautiful story of your life unfold.


Sick little man


I feel bad that I have not written in a couple weeks. I miss it. I have been preoccupied with so many other things in my life it seems like my blog has been one of my last priorities these days, but that is okay because sometimes there are just more important things that need to get done or that need my time.

Shane has been sick since Wednesday & it has been really hard on me-not only because I am not feeling well either, but because this is the first time he has really been sick. He has croup & with croup comes difficulty breathing. & it scares me. I feel helpless. I want to take all of his pain. I never knew that it would hurt so much to be a momma. I really do feel his pain-worse than my own. I was dreading going to bed last night because I just wanted him to be comfortable to be able to sleep.
Through his sickness though I am thankful for the time it has given me to cuddle & pray for & with Shane. I have trouble letting go & trusting God fully with the ones I love. It scares me. It scares me that God could have a different plan for them than the one that I have(where everyone is safe & healthy) over the last couple days though God has strengthened my faith & put His loving arms around me to strengthen me & allow me to let go of my fears & REALLY trust Him. I know it is something that I am going to have to keep asking God for strength , but I know He will be faithful to provide.
I know that some mothers have been through so much sickness with their children & so much uncertainty. I feel for them. It is hard to watch your baby suffer & I don’t think it will get easier as he gets older.
I am praying that tonight Shane can sleep through the night & start to feel like himself very soon.
Hope you have a great weekend. I am pretty sure we will just be laying around this weekend :) :)